Rhythm is the answer

Hello Wednesday, 28th day of September in year 2011. I can't believe you're here already. When autumn comes and everything is supposed to fall back [pun intended] to its rightful place after hectic summer, but for me a new autumn in Helsinki is never so. The film festival I've talked about a few times in last week's entries is over now, but it does sort of take over the whole of September and parts of August as well. It's not a bad thing, on the contrary. But it does effect my life and sleeping a lot, so aye, there's an excuse.

Hours slept since last Saturday: 7,5 + 4 + 5 + 7,5. No naps. (only) Two films. 4 + 5 glasses of wine, 1 GT, 1 beer. One 4,5 hour DJ gig (shared). From the total time for sleep only last night with its 7,5 hours was even close to proper rest. Otherwise I've been waking up every two hours, nervous about how things are going, how I should be doing certain things and not to do others.

I was off work on Monday (agreed beforehand, mind you), but my hope to get some rest fell into pieces already in the morning. I don't want to admit that I stress about my day job, because I don't. Sure I think about it, but it's not something I keep thinking about it all the time. It's more the balance of everything - or more correctly, the lack of it - that I keep thinking.

Clearly I can see from the text above and past entries that my life needs regularity before I can start thinking about sleeping properly. But how to achieve that if it's not something I really (really) have an urge for. I like the irregular regularity of past years of my life, and the periods like past month when there's no weekly or daily rhythm, are just too much fun. I need to learn to sleep without letting go any of the other stuff.

A tease for your pleasure (and mine):

P.S. The French group Breakbot was the band of my HIFF 2011. Their music or mix was featured in at least two films I saw (Poliss & Drive).